Showing posts with label love. Show all posts
Showing posts with label love. Show all posts

Thursday, December 31, 2009

A Decade Gone By ...



They say better late than never ... I felt the advent of the New Decade (and a year too !!) should be the right time to resurrect my Blog ... I wrote something very amateurish but then I am starting again and I hope the beautiful people who used to follow my blog take it to a new height and convince me not to take it any more to new depths :P. Lets cut the Speech, here is something which summarizes how the boy at the start of the Decade became a man ....

The Decade went by ... With a Blink of an Eye
I lost so much but I won too ...
I hated so many but I loved too ...
I failed so often but I succeeded too ...

I found myself But misplaced you.


Happy New Year and a Decade, I will be trying to chronicle the decade that wasn't in my other Blog, see you there.

Thursday, September 10, 2009

Coming Back To Life .....




This Blog and its sibling had died out of malnutrition but something stirred and ... so I hope it gets further nourishment.

A moment of silence prevailed ... when I waited for her and I wait for her
I gasp when I see her, its not her deep eyes .... neither her beauty ...
but her love for me ... the mountains, the oceans ... they all fail.

Thursday, May 21, 2009

Gift


I sat down to think what I shall gift you

 

May be, your portrait

Made on a blank canvass with the rainbow

Reflecting your essence and glow

 

Or

 

May be, a heavenly drape

Made out of god’s own satin

To drape you, the Venus of Latin

 

Or

 

May be, a jewel

Made form the light of the stars

To adorn your visage and heal your scars

 

Or

 

May be, some chocolates

Made from devil’s own beans

For you to savor whenever you feel lean  

 

But

 

I know what to give you

A song from the core of my heart

For you to listen and your soul to think

And for your eyes to see what slowly sinks.  


p.s: Hey friends, sorry for this delay between posts. Hope you all are fine and haven't lost interest in my obscure blog. By the way I have also posted on my other blog,  Limit is Limitless ... I think it should be a fun read. 

Friday, March 20, 2009

Love can Heal and Forgive ...



Last night it rained after a long toil
Releasing the fragrance from the virginal soil
Lulling me to sleep with the pitter patter and the breeze
Making me believe in thou power to heal and forgive …

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Love never failed ... won't ever fail ...



She was not blind but she couldn't see; Her eyes were all right but her mind wasn’t free. She groped in the dark for eternity; until His voice gave her back the clarity.

And suddenly, again the silence prevailed; But her love for him, never failed.
It will never fail....



p.s: My interview has come out in the 'Pakistan Spectator'; check it out if you have time: http://www.pakspectator.com/interview-with-blogger-som-dutta/

Monday, March 2, 2009

Every Night ..



“Coming back to Life” I “Wish you were here”…, the notes of Floyd waft past me;
As I try to catch my sleep by counting countless sheep.
Night after night the guitar wails
But still why do I fail, fail to make a song for you in my dreams
To wake every morning and sing ... not scream … !!

Monday, January 19, 2009

Flower Girl ...


Happy New Year every body, I could have posted something but wanted to start the year with a bang. A new song, the inspiration to write it happened last October but could not finish it for the last few months. One fine morning I woke up with a lingering thought about her and every thing fell into the place. Enjoy ...



She has a smile like the sun so bright

She is a poet’s delight

She moves like a breeze, taking away my peace

I can’t even stop to sneeze


One day walking down the lane

I don’t know from where she came

The flower girl so full of life

Drives me to drown in her tide


Her eyes are like the embers of sky

It makes me want to fly

She talks like a child, it drives me wild

I can’t even stop to breathe


One day walking down the lane

I don’t know from where she came

The flower girl so full of life

Drives me to drown in her tide


Friday, August 15, 2008

Love, Forgiveness and Freedom


Free, we are free. Free from what? The country is celebrating Independence Day but I can’t.
Jammu and Kashmir is bleeding. My heart is bleeding. What am I free from, independent from?


Why is the situation in this state? Because we can’t forgive and let things go. Because whenever we give something we expect returns. The greatest emotional fulfillment takes place only when we give without expectation and when we forgive.


Giving without expectation may seem a non pragmatic notion today but it still exists. Just try it once, give something to someone without expecting anything; it need not be something big or important. Say you had thought about eating a toffee and had kept it apart; just give it to someone without thinking. Without expecting anything from the benefactor; not even a thank you or a smile. And you will feel immense pleasure filling up your heart at that precise moment.

The other day I was going to the post office. It was late morning; I had taken my bath and was dressed in fresh clothes. Few street urchins were playing and running around at a juncture on the road. They were squalid and one of them looked as if he had just come out of the drain running parallel to the street. Suddenly in the midst of their commotion, the dirtiest of them bumped into me and put some filth of his clothes and body onto mine. At that instant I was livid and felt like spanking the boy. But the boys nonchalantly continued with their game and gave me an impish smile when I looked at them. I forgave them. I felt a joy in my heart. Some may say it was not a big deal but I would like to point out that today we don’t even forgive our friends for trivial mistakes.

But have we ever thought what characterizes the human race?

It is forgiveness that makes us what we are. Without forgiveness, there would be no history. Without that hope, there would be no art, for every work of art is in some way an act of forgiveness. Without that dream, there would be no love, for each act of love is in some way a promise to forgive. We live on because we can love, and we love because we can forgive. --- Shantaram

Saturday, June 14, 2008

My foray into fiction...

Disclaimer: All the characters in this story are fictious. Any resemblance to any one living or dead is a coincident.


Test and a Tryst

“Lets see who sits in front of me, the exam is going to start and the person is still absent, must be a genius or a fool”, I contemplated while waiting for my question paper to be handed over to me. I was a bit agitated and it was quite natural, it was not just another entrance exam, it was the entrance test for Indian Statistical Institute. Had heard quite a few tales about the level of the questions and that did not help either!! It was April and already the room felt stuffy. I wished for a whiff of a breeze or anything remotely pleasant to soothe my nerves.

“Wow!! Hope she sits in the empty chair in front of me”. I thanked god for sending this whiff of fresh air to soothe my frayed nerves. Those beautiful light brown eyes finely chiseled face, peach and milk complexion and the pout; my heart skipped a beat. And voila, she sits in front of me. Then suddenly I came back to reality of the examination, as I was given the question paper. Time flew like anything and soon the first paper was over. I had done pretty well but pretty well don’t suffice in this exam, a handful of seats for thousands of candidates. The next paper was after 2 hours, I had to spend the time somehow. I was not feeling like revising the formulas, even the heat seemed too oppressive to go out. The class was empty within two minutes of the test getting over; “the paper was not that easy!!? Even the pretty girl left”.

I was contemplating in my solitude when she rushed back to the room. She looked anxious. She came over to me and said, “Hey, I forgot to write my roll number in the question paper. What to do now?” As if I was the examination coordinator. I thanked the person who made the rules for test (about even writing ones roll no. on the question paper), which I thought was ridiculous till then. Rather than ceasing the opportunity and becoming the knight in the shining armor, I stayed put in my seat and blurted out something about her going to the staff room and talking to the authorities. I have always prayed for opportunities like these but when the situation comes I disappoint myself. “She won’t come back after such an un-gentlemanly conduct by me” and I tried to concentrate on the formulas to drive away the feeling of disappointment. Suddenly a soft voice startled me “Thank you”. She was gazing down on me with brown almond eyes and a smile breaking on her face. Even I smiled or grinned, I am not sure but I was pleasantly surprised by my stars, “if my luck is running so well today I will crack the test too!!”

“So what happened? Things have been sorted out?” and I gestured her to sit. “Thank you so much, I did as you said and things has been taken care of.” She sat on the bench in front of me as she spoke. I hadn’t noticed till then she even had the famous Cindy Crawford mole just above her upper lip. I gazed into those sparkling eyes and asked whether she had her lunch; the words came out with a real tinge of concern. Why it happened? Well maybe my own hunger (for food off-course) or it was her effect or was I really concerned, I was not sure. Frankly speaking I am no James Bond; yes I can speak well and I may flirt at times too but that day every thing fell into place even without me trying for it. As if the whole universe was conspiring to ruin my exam. I just could not fathom at that time that it was a boon or a bane. She sensed the concern in my voice and her features became soft. “I will go out and eat something; my dad won’t come now. He will be waiting for me outside after the tests get over.”

“Hey don’t worry; it is too hot outside so share my lunch.”

“Thank you but it is for you, if you share it won’t you fell hungry?” she questioned with intent and concern. “It is always advisable to eat less during exams.” I quipped with a smile, pulling out my lunch box.

We both started to eat out of my lunch box, which contained some lip smacking sandwiches and which I should have grudged to share with anyone but I just realized I was happy to share them with her. In the course of time I came to know that she was from Dhanbad. She wanted to pursue Biotechnology (then why the hell is she giving this exam?!) and for that she even took tips from me. The smart alec I was, even without knowing what they teach in Biotechnology, I rattled of colleges she should try to get into. This surely impressed her. It went on for sometime with my putting in lines like; “your name is as pretty as your face”, “you have something in you, it is different from most of the usual pretty girls” and she blushed with a smile every time. And the lines came out with real conviction, not like some trite remark.

“Are you the only one from Dhanbad, haven’t any of your friends come to give this exam?”

“Yes few of them are here; one of my close friends is here”

“So won’t you go and meet them?”

“I meet them everyday so today I rather stay here” she put in with a smile, that infectious smile that could melt the most stoic of men.

“Can we go out for a walk, it seems pretty oppressive here?” she suggested. I affirmed and we walked side by side, chatting like we have known each other for ages.

We went around the campus of the test centre, discovering iron bars to walk and soil mounds to climb. In her company even the afternoon blaze seemed bearable. Giving her a hand to help whenever she needed it and she accepted them graciously. When suddenly I glanced at my watch, time had flown like anything; more than an hour had passed even without my realizing. During the whole episode even the mere thought of the imminent test hadn’t crossed my mind. Einstein was right about relativity.

Coming back to reality, I asked her to accompany me inside to revise some formulas. I started revising the formulas while giving her some tips on number theory in between. She was not very good at mathematics but I surprised myself with the patient effort I put in. She looked on with her twinkling eyes full of admiration and I wished those half an hour never ended.

The test started with the influx of students and the invigilators. Frankly speaking during the test her thought never crossed my mind. The subjective paper lived up to its revered name and I was engrossed in tackling it. After the test she introduced me to her friend and her dad. She asked me to come to visit her if ever I go to Dhanbad. She even gave her number and asked me to call. I don’t remember if I gave mine. I don’t remember if I noted her number or how I lost it. I sometime think that if it would have happened during these times when almost every one has a mobile or there is Orkut we would have met again. I have even forgotten her name. Why it happened? Maybe I was too young to understand something important was occurring or maybe because at that time I had a crush on some one else. The reason is not important. The only thing after so many years perplexes me is why did the whole episode take place. If I was not to meet her again; why such an intense encounter? What was the supreme master trying to teach me? This question has to be answered by you.

She left after shaking my hand and a sweet good bye, with her eyes still sparkling and an angelic smile.

Monday, April 28, 2008

BRAND NEW DAY....??!!

How many of you people out there
Been hurt in some kind of love affair
And how many times do you swear that you'll never love again?
How many lonely, sleepless nights
How many lies, how many fights
And why would you want to put yourself through all that again?

(STING)

BUT THEN WHY FOR US ALL, JUST NOT ME OR YOU..OR SOMEONE ELSE...FOR ALL THE FOLLOWING HOLDS GOOD ?

This Red Chocolate of mine, has broken Again and Again;
A fool it was from the start, A fool it will remain.
(Som)

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

Story Untold....

Long time since I posted rather this is my first post this Year; so Happy New year. Hope you have all broken your resolutions by now. I was contemplating what to write in my first post this year. In the end I have put up the new song I have written. It took me almost a year to come with a new song but the wait was worth..I think so...

STORY UNTOLD....

It started as a fairytale
and ended in a cry;
The touch of her lips
the smile in his eyes.

He thought she was the one
she thought he was the life;
The warmth of his breath
the love in her eyes.


chorus

They traveled through the storms
they traveled through the fires
Their paths were different,
But love lasted more than a life.......


Life is just not as simple
the way they believed it was;
They weren't meant to be
the universe conspired.

Will she ever forget him
will he ever those eyes;
The sweet sound of love
the moments of desire.

Chorus.

















Monday, November 12, 2007

On the Nature of LOVE

We humans try to attain perfection in everything. Say if we have a job in a firm, we try to go for a better firm which may be giving us a better paycheck or a better job profile. If say we are an author then first I start with a small publisher but then if my work is really good and appreciated then I look for bigger names to publish my work. Why ??
Because that is rational, If I am really good I should try to attain my potential to the fullest extent. Again for objective or some may say materialistic things too we try to attain the things which are better than the things we have, like a better Car, a bigger house etc etc. Here too we try to attain the highest we can achieve BUT yes here comes the BUT. Why do we compromise when it comes to emotions and the the greatest of all emotions LOVE.
Yes, if at a point of time we have girlfriend/boyfriend and meet somebody new, whom we know from the core of our heart would be better for us ( it is just not the other person is more beautiful or say has a better bank balance, successful etc etc, but the whole thing; I hope you understand) but we still persist and why ??!! Shouldn't we try to attain perfection here too ??! Why double standards ?? We make our selves believe that the person with which we are now is the best, putting a veil of ignorance on our eyes or even worse; we think "what will my present partner feel, no no I can't hurt her/him". Hey, do we feel bad for the firm we leave to join another or for the shopkeeper whose shop we have stopped visiting since Reliance Fresh opened in my locality ??!
No !! Then why for the case when it deals with human emotions. Why can't we think every thing as an object, If the person I am leaving is really a rational being she/he will understand and herself/himself look for their soul mate. I believe every person has a soul mate and it is up to us to find, most of us don't so we die dis-satisfied.
On this nature of love even Rabindranath Tagore has written a poem. The nature is such that one we get we say him/her to be the one but we just don't know how many better were and are there still waiting.

On the Nature of Love


The night is black and the forest has no end;
a million people thread it in a million ways.
We have trysts to keep in the darkness, but where
or with whom - of that we are unaware.
But we have this faith - that a lifetime's bliss
will appear any minute, with a smile upon its lips.
Scents, touches, sounds, snatches of songs
brush us, pass us, give us delightful shocks.
Then peradventure there's a flash of lightning:
whomever I see that instant I fall in love with.
I call that person and cry: `This life is blest!
for your sake such miles have I traversed!'
All those others who came close and moved off
in the darkness - I don't know if they exist or not.